Is that your final anwser?

Yes it is. I got very little sleep last night but I've come to a decision about my living arangments. I'm gonna be bunking with my 10 yr old niece :) Lee and Jen love me and are welcoming me into their home. Thank you so much guys. Imagine that, 11 years after first saying I wish I could live with them becuase they were sooooooo cool I actually get to lol. I really think it's whats best for me and though they dont see it now it's whats best for my roomies/friends right now.

In all this stress I forgot to welcome Baby Rayne Hayward into the world. Heidi and Nicole sister, Naomie had her baby on Sunday night around 11:15. She was 6lbs 10 ounces. I haven't seen her yet but I hear she's got lots of hair. Congrats to Naomie and Vinny, I love you both and you're gonna make wonderful parents.
p.s as soon as i have a picture I'll be sure to post it.

Picture to make me smile

Ok so it's a terrible pic of me but this pic makes me smile anyways. With me in the pic are Freddy and Nicole. Nicole is my long time friend one of my closest actually, she also has season tickets beside me at the Moose games. Freddy a good friend of mine from the team. Just signed a contract with the Flyers, Congrats to him for that. Gonna miss ya buddy. Be sure to come back and visit lots. WIth all this stress lately I need something to make me smile and this worked. I'm out...lata peeps lol

Big Changes are comin'

I always knew I hated making big decisions. I always want to do what will make EVERYONE happy, which of course never happens. By tomorrow I have a huge decision to make. Due to things I'd rather not go into, I need to move. I have 3 options the first being going home to mom and dad. Well there is no way that's gonna happen. No offense if you're reading this mommy, I love you I can't live with you guys. The second option is to move in with the same roommates I have now in a different house. The third is to move in with Lee and Jen. Without going into details it's hard to understand but this has me pulling in 2 different directions. It's 12:06am right now and in 8 hours people are gonna need anwsers, I'm gonna need anwsers. I know it's something I have to do on my own but that knowledge isn't helping. It sounds teribbly selfish but I really am starting to think this is thing where I need to do what's best for me. In fact I even know what that is. Of course it's easier said then done. Wish me luck everyone in making the right choice. Soon you'll all know.

Oh the stress....tick tock, tick tock...

17 Naomi style vs. 17 Mana style...

Today was Naomis birthday, for those of you who didn't call, might wanna do that.....
After a long tiring day/week at work I picked up both my roomies and headed out to Mom and Dads house. I made a few stops, picking up a card and such but eventually made it to Hacketts Cove. I got the usual big hugs from everyone and introduced to Naomis 10 or 11 teenage friends. Lots of energy, some snacks and sugar later the 15-17 yr olds were hyper and pretty riled. It was really a great time. Got everyone up and dancin'. Randomly in the middle of all the fun some girly teen drama where tears where shed and then back to the fun by the time a late night movie was put in. Once all the girls were settled into the movie Heidi, Nicole and I headed out. The car ride home is about an hour and for the most part I stayed quiet (for once). I drove and thought back to my own life at 17. Lucky for Naomi it'll be happier times for her. On January 5th of 2002 I turned 17, on the 6th I was in the IWK hospital, it was the start of a 6 week stay to prep me for the surgery I was to have in Febuary. The idea was to get my lungs in the best condition we could to pervent any breathing complications during and/or after surgery. At 17 I sometimes felt 50, while I've had my moments where I curse my childhood, especially my teenage years I know I am who I am because of it. I truly believe everything happens for a reason. Many good friendship were built on those hospital stays. Plenty of lessons learned, life long things that will stay with me forever. I can't even express my happiness though to watch Naomi be that 'normal' type teen. I almost envied her for it. Listening to 12 teenage girls go on about crazy 'end of the world' boy problems made me smile. Little do they know but life will get tougher and so will they. Boys get more complicated and dumb too by the way. That whole process of growing was my train of thought tonight. Those 'Lifes Hard Lessons' they'll have to learn. I hope for everyone of those girls it'll happen at a much slower pace then I went through. The drive home I kept thinking about the differances between Naomi and I. Little things that I missed out on as a teen because of my illness. Certainly attending a proper high school instead of a classroom on the top floor of the childrens hospital would have made a differance. Little things anyone healthy misses out on, like watching a roommate in the hospital become health enough to finally get to go home, or the closeness and second family feel I treasure to this day with the nursing staff. We've grown up so different. I sometimes have a hard time talking to my sisters, both Elizabeth and Naomi. Both are very different personalities from not only each other but from me. I'm always afraid I won't be able to relate to what they're going through. Tonight in the mists of the fun and the random tears from overwelmed friends I saw a maturity in Naomi. It honestly almost threw me off guard. It took a brick hitting me over the head in the form of awful health conditions to reach some of the levels of adult Naomi showed tonight. Yet she still gets to be a teenager with her biggest worries being boys, clothes, makeup and school. Don't look at this as a complaining session, my teen years had plenty of good times too. The IWK deserves a ton of credit along with my family and close friends. Thanks to them I got through it all just fine. Tonight I simply felt a happy moment, a proud moment. I love knowing my sister is a healthy normal teen. At 17 I was in a different place but really it was timing best for me and Naomis timing is working just fine for her. In the battle of the 17 yr olds no wins over the other we both made to the check-point just with different routes. Who says thats a bad thing?

I know everyone reading this, Naomi included will be surprised at my sappiness tonight but I want everyone to know how proud I am of the growth I've seen in my baby sister. For those who don't get the chance to watch the young ones grow, take notes and give 'em a call. It'll blow your mind how far not just the girls have come in maturity but all six of the younger ones still at home.

Great roady pic, Me, Naomi, Heidi and Elizabeth at a Mooseheads game in PEI

Elizabeth, Jo, and Myself....posting this picture because it's a good one and no one has any updated pics of me.

Opening Face-off

Alright so here it is, my first atempt at a blog. I make no promises as to how often I'll post but I'll at least give it a try. To be honest at first I thought it was a pretty corny idea. Watching my sisters-in law and my brothers blogs though and it turns out to be a little helpful. With such a big family (7 brothers, 2 sisters, 1 niece and 2 nephews, plus my 3 sisters-in-law) and distance separating some of us this saves all of us on some of that guilt from not calling each other. Not that I don't mean to call, I do, I swear but something always seems to come up. Life gets in the way sometimes *kicks life in the head for being stupid and in the way all the time*.

Well seeing as I want to use this as a bit of an update for my friends and family that don't get to talk to me as often as we would all like I guess I should start with some new things about me. If you haven't heard yet I have a new job, YAY ME! After 2 and 1/2 years at Wendys my health finally forced me to quit that hellhole. Now I'm a certified barista at Starbucks. Honestly it's no dream job but I like it, everyone there is really sweet and it's just generally a happy enviroment to work in. The Starbucks I work in is at the airport so I get to meet really interesting people too. The Junos were wicked awesome (as my nephew, Jared would say). Met all sorts of (sorta) famous people. Does Nickelback count for something at least? Other then the new job not much is different with me. Same stress, different day. I'm kinda going through hockey withdrawl with my Mooseheads getting kicked out of the playoffs a month ago. I love NHL hockey but it's not the same as going to games at the MC (Metro Center). Plus my team busted in the playoffs in the NHL too. Stupid Mighty Ducks GRRRRRR. I'll stop there or I'll have a 10 pages rant about the Avs and that just would bore everyone other then me.

For those of you who know my long-time friend Michelle, she had her baby on May 19th, named her Brooklyn. The lil one was 3 and 1/2 weeks early and weighed in at 6lbs 1 ounce. Congrats to both her and Jeremiah. Love you guys a ton.

Also for anyone who somehow didn't hear Holly yelling and jumping for joy, Robert and Holly are getting married next summer. If you haven't seen the ring yet, ask her. She likes showing it and it's shiny so everyone wins =D My chickidee asked me to be her maid of honour which of course I accepted happily. So next summer I'll be heading down to VA for a wedding. I'm so incredibly happy for both of them. Elysia will make the perfect flowergirl.

I'm gonna sign out there, wanna play around with this a little more. Please if ya got anything to say to what i write, post something. I'm much more likely to keep this up if i know people are reading it.